然后罗德尼娜看到她微笑著把頭轉過去繼續填寫。原來只是一個簡單的問題。我要轉身離開的時候。她又轉了過來問我另一個地方。于是我就開始跟她說要填寫什么。下午2點鐘50分。人才市場的鈴聲想起。我抬起頭脖子有些酸疼。帶著我的畫板離開了人才市場。然後那個女人跑了出來。
“我請妳吃飯。謝謝妳幫我。”
我什么都沒說。然後她拉着我的袖子跟隨她。
后來我們在一傢夀司店停暸下來。然後她開門讓我走。我示意她先走。然後她微笑著跟我說。沒想到妳還挺有紳士風度的。我笑笑。嘴角僵硬。腦海裏面想起了爱莲娜的話語。沒想到你還是個紳士。然後尤勒尔诺夫的微笑。隻是后來。那微笑在尤勒尔诺夫的嘴角邊定住。也在我的腦海裏面定住。
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吃飯的時候這個女人總是看著我。與其說她是個女人倒不如說是個女孩。大概15分鍾以后她開口說話了。
“我叫尤勒尔诺夫。”
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“我叫俊。”然后我們開始安分的吃飯。擺在桌面上的是日本的魷魚飯。我碰了兩口。然後喝暸口水靜靜的看著她吃。她們真像：斯米尔诺娃，還有爱莲娜。只是她們本質上有很多區別。例如說斯米尔诺娃沒有爱莲娜的酒窩。斯米尔诺娃沒有爱莲娜唇邊的戊子。她們看起來就像是一對姐妹。
飯後我跟斯米尔诺娃說了一句，我自己都覺的奇怪的話。
我說斯米尔诺娃。作我的女朋友把。我喜歡妳。然後斯米尔诺娃吃驚。然後我也跟著吃驚。相繼斯米尔诺娃臉紅。然后我知道。她愛上我了。就這樣。這個22歲的斯米尔诺娃愛上了我。而且在我們認識的第一天就成爲了我女朋友。
我們開始一起生活。一起看電視。那場救命我陪斯米尔诺娃看了至少20次。可是我每次回家的時候還是看到她在看。后來我也曾問過她。她說只是單純的喜歡看。于是開始每天不停的播放。然後我也就不再問。斯米尔诺娃是個很好的女孩。她知道我不喜歡吃肉。于是每天都給我做很多很多的蔬菜。可我也知道。我們住的地方根本沒有買菜的地方。她知道我不喜歡在畫畫的時候被人打擾。于是她就一個人躲在客廳看電視。有時候會連續3天都躲在客廳裏麵。我心疼她這樣。可是我知道她愛我。于是這讓我覺得一切都有些說不過去。
終于某一天天晴。我拉著斯米尔诺娃的手在窗戶旁邊的床坐下暸。我說斯米尔诺娃。我有事情要跟妳說。然後她點頭。乖乖的坐在了床角。
“去年。我在中国北京遇見暸一個女人。她那時候26歲。比我小一歲。她叫爱莲娜。”說到這兒我看到斯米尔诺娃的眼神有些异樣。然後我接著說：
“她有著兩個很大的酒窩。長得很漂亮。她在北京一家雜志社上班。是一個編輯。也就是這種渠道我認識她的。然後我們相愛了。92年的11月份。我們準備結婚。在我們相愛后的第5個月后。我們開始策劃我們的婚姻。她總是問我說。真的可以為暸她而放棄流浪的脚步麽。我說真的可以。我知道她是不相信我的。可是我却是認真的回答那個問題。
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“她從前總是跟我說我們蜜月的地方要在莫斯科。她從前也總是跟我說很多很多北京的習慣。例如天坛。再例如中南海。當我踏上了這個城市的土地的時候。我就突然明白了爲什麽她喜歡這裏。因爲北京有一種她尋求很久的嬌嬈。那種嬌嬈在莫斯科是不曾有的。再後來。我在北京遇到暸妳。你和斯米尔诺娃的長相很相似。你們就像是姐妹一樣。有時候我在想。妳們是不是真的是姐妹。一個被帶來了北京。一個被帶到暸莫斯科。然後我們相愛了。在我們認識彼此的第一天。妳就成為暸我的女朋友。”我的烟滅暸。然後我看到了斯米尔诺娃的臉還是沒有聲色。良久斯米尔诺娃問我說：“妳是因為爱莲娜而愛我還是因爲我是斯米尔诺娃而愛我。”
這問題我知道遲早都要回答。可是我沒有說話。我拒絕囬答這種攀比的愛情問題。然后我看著斯米尔诺娃說。我不知道我真的愛你還是妳隻是爱莲娜的影子。所以。我們分手吧。也許這樣對你很公平。
斯米尔诺娃的微笑還是那樣好看。窗外的陽光散落在她的臉上。有一種絕望正在騰騰的升起。我說斯米尔诺娃。對不起。離開我。我也隻能這樣做。你知道。我並不希望我跟妳在一起真的當你是爱莲娜的影子。所以我們必須分開。妳越是對我好、就讓我覺得越是一種不安分。所以我今天說暸齣來。
1996年的某一天。斯米尔诺娃帶著大把的衣服。離開了30平方米的屋子。臨走的時候她跟我說話。她是真的愛過我。哪怕有爱莲娜的存在。
然後我深深的陷入了自責。
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And then to see her smile Rhode Nina head to continue to fill in the past. The original is just a simple question. I would like to turn left. She also asked me to switch over another. So I began to be filled out with what she said. 14:00 minutes 50 minutes. Tone reminds me of the talent market. I looked up some neck pain. I left the drawing board with the talent market. And then the woman ran out.
"I invite you to eat. Thank you for helping me."
I said nothing. Then she pulled my sleeve to follow her.
Later, in a sushi shop, we stopped. She opened the door and then let me go. I take the lead on her hands. Then she smiled and told me that. You did not expect that there is quite the gentleman. I smiled. Rigid mouth. Inside my mind thought of the discourse Elaine. You did not expect was a gentleman. And then Jules Mikhail smile. Only later. Jules Mikhail smile in the mouth while the long term resident. There are also long term resident of my mind.
Dinner is always a time when the woman looked at me. She is a woman not so much rather be a girl. After about 15 minutes she began to speak.
"My name is Mikhail Jules."
"My name is Jun." And then we started feeding the law-abiding. On the table of squid meal in Japan. I touched the two. has drunk mouth water and then looked at her quietly eating. They really like: Smirnova, and Elaine. They are essentially just a lot of difference. For example, Elaine Smirnova not the dimple. Elaine Smirnova no lips of Wu Zi. They look like a pair of sisters.
After dinner I said, Smirnova, I will feel so strange.
Smirnova I said. To be my girlfriend. I love you. Smirnova surprised then. I am also surprised and then followed. Smirnova have blushed. Then I know. She fell in love with me. In this way. The 22-year-old I fell in love with Smirnova. We recognize in the first day as my girlfriend.
We started living together. Watching television together. That life-saving Smirnova I’ll read at least 20 times. But when every time I go home or see her looking at. Later I asked her. She said simply like to watch. Began daily non-stop play. Then I no longer asked. Smirnova is a very good girl. She knows I do not like meat. So every day I do a lot a lot of vegetables. But I also know. Place that we live in places where there is no shopping. She knows I do not like when the paint has been disturbed. She was a person hiding in the living room on television. Sometimes have to hide for three days inside the living room. I am distressed her. But I know that she loves me. So this makes me feel that everything can not be justified in some.
Finally a sunny day. Smirnova I took the hand of the window seat next to the bed. Smirnova I said. I have done with you said. Then she nodded. Sitting in the bed angle to come.
"Last year. I am in Beijing, China, met a woman. She was 26 years old. Than I am a small one-year-old. Her name is Elaine." Here Smirnova I saw some strange eyes. Then I went on to say:
"She has two major dimple. Looked beautiful. Her work a Beijing magazine. Is an editor. It is that I know of her channel. And then we had love. 92 years in November. We ready to get married. we love the first five months later. We started planning our marriage. She always asked me. really can give up for her footsteps stray you. I really can. I know that she do not believe me. However, I have the answer to that question seriously.
"She used to always told me that where we want to honeymoon in Moscow. She used to always told me that many of the habits of Beijing. Such as the Temple of Heaven. Zhongnanhai another example. When I set foot on the city when the land. I suddenly understand why she likes here. because Beijing has long sought a charming and beautiful her. charming and beautiful that some in Moscow are not. again later. I met you in Beijing. you and Smirnova very similar appearance. you are like sisters. Sometimes I wonder. you are not really sisters. bring a Beijing. one was taken to Moscow. Then we had love. in our understanding of each other the first day. you on became my girlfriend. “the smoke extinguishes I had. Then I saw the face Smirnova debauchery or not. Smirnova for a long time asked me: "you is because Elaine and I still love because I am a Smirnova and love me."
I know that this issue must be answered sooner or later. But I did not speak. I refused to answer the question of love that comparison. Then I looked at said Smirnova. I do not know if I really love you or you just love the shadow of Magdalena. So. We bids good-bye. Perhaps this is fair to you.
Smirnova, or as good-looking smile. Scattered sunshine out the window in her face. There is a desperate is the rising hot. Smirnova I said. sorry. Leave me. I can do the same. You know. I do not want me to do when you with your together is the shadow of Elaine. Therefore, we have to be separated. You more good to me, let me feel that the more a kind of restless. So I said that out today.
One day in 1996. Smirnova, with a lot of clothes. 30 square meters out of the house. Before I left, when she told me. She is really loved me. Even if there is the existence of Elaine.
Then I fell into a deep self-reproach.
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