“近十年来，我没有患上什么疾病，却被媒体报道患了严重的神经衰弱，或者其他什么的，令我常常一个人吸烟到天明。漫漫长夜，孤独、无助、委屈一起袭来，常禁不住捂在被子里独自饮泣。她眼底的冷漠和嘴角的蔑视常常刺痛我，令我不寒而栗。”罗德尼娜又燃起一支烟，猛烈地吸着。过了许久，他缓缓地说，“因为我有错在先，所以一直以来努力克制着自己，没有强迫她。”
“就算是犯了法，被判刑，十年，也该到期了吧。”平平不由有些愤愤，“难道他在外面有所寄托而忽略了你的感受？”
“恰恰相反。如果她有，那就好办多了，至少我的心里会感觉平衡一些。我可以顺着她的心意，也可以原谅她。但她没有，虽然她喜欢跳舞、喜欢画妆、喜欢把自己打扮得光彩照人。她像一支开放在冬季里的腊梅，妖冶而冰冷。”
“你就没有想过带她去看心理医生？”我忍不住说。
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“想过无数遍了，行不通。说白了还是那该死的自尊、面子。”
到此，我也不好再说什么。毕竟，作为一市之长的面子是大过我们小老百姓许多的。
“真想不通你这十年是怎么走过来的？”我脱口而出，好似自言自语。
“你是知道的，我内心是个十分保守的人，甚至于学着一句话也没讲。纵然有时真想在外面寻找感情的慰藉，却终究做不出来。而且一直以来，我总以为在我的努力下，她会好起来，与我一起白头到老。直到遇到扎伊采夫。”她的眼神突然变得柔和。“客观地说，扎伊采夫并不漂亮，但他的性格随和，气质也好，很有男人味。我们是不知不觉相爱的。和他在一起，我会莫名地开心，人也有了活力，训练起来，也更有活力。他给人很温暖很柔软的感觉，让人不自觉地爱怜。”
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罗德尼娜沉浸在美好的回忆中。这是进入五星级酒店落座以来他心情最好的一刻。爱情真是个奇妙的东西，可以令一个七尺男儿陷入伤心欲绝的境地，也可以让他变得温柔似水。
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“那你打算离了婚嫁扎伊采夫？”我似乎明白了她的心思。其实她自己早已想好了，向我倾诉只是想获得情感上的支持。
“不是的。”
“也许可以说是工作的需要！”
想知后事如何？请阅读第【八十九】章分解
"Over the past decade, I do not suffer from any disease, but media reports of suffering from a serious nervous breakdown, or any other place that I always to the dawn of a person smoking. Long night, lonely, helpless, wronged come together often could not cover in the yard alone sobs in silence. fundus of her mouth the contempt of indifference and I often hurt, I shudder. "Rhode Nina cigarette and ignited, sorption violently. After a long time, he slowly said, "because I have the wrong first, and so has been their efforts to exercise restraint, did not force her."
"Even if it is breaking the law, was sentenced a decade, but also the maturity of it." Not flat, some angrily, "I wonder if he has been placed on the outside to the neglect of your feelings?"
"On the contrary. If she has, it is more easy to handle, at least my heart will feel some balance. I can follow her heart, she can also forgive. But she did not, although she likes to dance, like painting makeup, liked to present himself as a brilliant. She is like an open in the winter of Lamei, flirtatious and cold. "
"You never thought to take her to see a psychologist?" I can not help that.
"Thought about countless times, and will not work. That white self-esteem or that bloody face."
This, I do not say anything else good. After all, as a City of our face is a lot of small people.
"I could not figure them out is how you come this decade come from?" I blurted out, as if to himself.
"You know my heart is a very conservative person, and even did not learn to speak a word. Although sometimes really want to find out the feelings of comfort, but ultimately not able to. And since, I always thought that in my efforts, she would get better, to join me in old age to old age. until Zaitsev encountered. "her eyes suddenly soft. "Objectively speaking, Zaitsev was not pretty, but his easy-going personality, temperament, or, very manly. We love unknowingly. And with him, I will happily nameless places, people have vitality, training, and also more dynamic. He gives a very soft, very warm feeling, people unconsciously show tender affection. "
Rhode Nina immersed in the beautiful memories. This is the five-star hotels sit since the moment he felt the best. Love is a wonderful thing that can make a seven foot stricken man into a sad situation, you can let him become gentle Things.
"That you intend to marry divorced Zaitsev?" I seem to understand her thoughts. In fact, she already would like to better talk to me just want to get emotional support.
"Not."
"Maybe it can be said that the need for work!"
Funeral would like to know how? Please read the first chapter decomposition 【89】
