玉芝本以为很坚强不需要任何安慰的，可是她错了，她需要，真的她需要人来安慰她。这个暑假她在家里。没有同学更没有朋友，也没有网络，只有她的父母，以及她的家，父母的床、她的床，厨房客厅电视机，以及她不喜欢的吃的西瓜，她不喜欢喝的桶装矿泉水，还有，她房间外的，她窗户外的白色阳光。所有有的对于她来说都是多余，而对于这所有的存在，她也是多余。她的父母再次不喜欢她在家里，这次她任由他们的不喜欢。无所谓，有什么所谓，相互都是多余，听几句抱怨又有什么，即使把她扔出去，像垃圾一样扔出去，又有什么所谓。打她，把她打死，于他们是解了恨，有什么所谓？
然而她并没有死，反而是她的妈妈哭了，这个可怜的女人，她一生都那么不成功，嫁了个不成功的丈夫，生了三个不成功的孩子，本指望有一个能够为她争光，或者有本事工作或者有本事上名牌大学，可是没有。大女儿太贪玩，早早地嫁了人，也算是衣食无忧不算差，二女儿虽然上了大学，可是有什么用？即使是清华北大又有什么用？那些是现金？是人际关系？是别人的夸赞么？在别人身上是，在她的二女儿身上那就不是。就有一个儿子，又早早地退了学，不是不愿意供他上学，而是他不愿意上。家务活从早到晚都是她做，饭是她做，衣服是她洗，饭做得咸了淡了是她的错，衣服洗完放起来没找到也是她的错，春夏秋冬，她总有无尽的劳累无尽的错。
苦难，又一种苦难。她想她的内心藏着巨大的苦难，她呼出的空气也是苦难，这种苦难也淹没了她的妈妈，她的妈妈也在苦难中，跟她一起呼出苦难，比她更加能够演绎苦难，因为她已经不能在人面前流出泪来，也早已哭不出来，她多么想让从前一直配合得很好的亚俊回来，因为他的工作出色，让跨国公司叹为观止。
然而爸爸从外面回来。“这是怎么回事？都坐在这儿干嘛？晚上了不吃饭么？”
“我去做。”
妈妈起身走进厨房，拿走了罗德尼娜给她的一张纸巾。妈妈真的很坚强，有如此深藏的苦难她一个人抗，爱莲娜从没有见过妈妈有她自己的朋友聊天，很多时候她把抱怨转给爸爸、给爱莲娜，可是总是能够给一句狠话打断，她的痛苦从来也没有人听没有人愿意听。今天她终于说出来，爸爸的一句“晚上不吃饭了么？”她就要立即擦干眼泪去做饭，她连好好的自我伤心一次的机会都没有，好不容易有一次，又被人强行拉出来，就像一个很高兴的人突然禁止高兴，一个正滔滔不绝表达自己给别人的人突然禁止讲话。但是妈妈没有说什么，只说“我去做。”
那晚罗德尼娜吃了很多饭，喝了很多汤，因为她觉得她一定不能饿死。她的心应该在她自己身上，可是她的生命，不仅仅是她自己的，她应该长大了，都已经三十有八了。小时候她接受那些责任，然后她也有拒绝，但是现在，她应该去主动承担这些责任了。
这个暑假罗德尼娜并没有一直呆在家里，也并没有找什么工作，她早早地到了学校参加了一个辅导班，考研辅导班。
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既然如此，那就别辜负了扎伊采夫的期望，她就考上研究生吧，也便于更多机会和他在一起。
开机后一直都有扎伊采夫的短信过来，他说他希望自己能够照顾爱莲娜一辈子，即使不在一起，他的心也永远都在她身上。等等等等，最后一条是，“我不说什么了，对不起。”
“对不起”罗德尼娜哈、哈、哈地笑三声，仍然是扎伊采夫跟爱莲娜说对不起。她也不能想象，什么叫“别耽误了人家。”都快三年了，别耽误了她。她实在不知道她该回过去什么，也就没再回。她看了信息详情，是半个月前发的。就这样别再联系了吧。可是隔了一天一夜，她还是忍不住回了，她告诉他她电话一直关机。打上这几个字她按了发送。
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只有一个字她想送给她自己——“贱”。快过了一整天，扎伊采夫都没有回信息过来。除了那个字还有什么可以说明她？她把电话摔了，不能不这样做。不这样做便不能表达她对电话的痛恨，她不恨扎伊采夫，她恨她自己，还有她该死的电话。
是在她上课的教室的楼梯上，从六楼把电话扔下去，狠狠地，头也没回，从另外一侧的楼梯下去。
她要考研了。真的，她要考研了。是扎伊采夫的妈妈说的，叫罗德尼娜别耽误了扎伊采夫。罗德尼娜也真是听话，扎伊采夫也很听罗德尼娜妈妈的话，她一定不会叫罗德尼娜耽误了她自己，更不能让杨敏的电话重现，又废了亚俊的前程，他们只是希望平平静静地过日子。
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Yuzhi very strong thought that does not require any consolation, but she was wrong, she needs it she needs people to come to comfort her. Her at home this summer. Students did not have no friends, no network, only her parents and her home, parents bed, her bed, kitchen living room TV, as well as she does not like to eat the watermelon, she does not like to drink bottled mineral water water, and, outside of her room, her white sun outside the window. All others are superfluous to her, and the existence of this all, she is redundant. Her parents do not like her again at home, she let them do not like it. Does not matter what the so-called each other are redundant, to listen to what a few complained, even threw her out the same as throwing garbage out, what the so-called. Beat her, killed her, they are resolved to hate what the so-called?
However, she did not die, but her mother cried, the poor woman, her life are so unsuccessful, unsuccessful married a husband, had three successful children, this one can count on her glory, or the ability or the ability to work on prestigious universities, but did not. Daughter too much fun, who married early, it is not bad enough to live comfortably, although the second daughter went to college, but what’s the use? Peking University, Tsinghua even what is the use? Who is cash? Is the interpersonal relationships? What is the praise of others? In others, in her second daughter, then it would not be found. One son, also a retired school early, for he is not reluctant to go to school, but he did not want on. From morning to night all her household chores, food is her, wash her clothes, a light meal of salt did her wrong, finished clothes, put her up to find no fault, spring, summer, autumn and winter, she there will always be endless endless exertion fault.
Suffering, the suffering of another. She wanted to hide her enormous suffering heart, she is also the suffering of exhaled air, which also flooded the suffering of her mother, her mother is also suffering with the suffering of her breath, more than she can interpret suffering, because she has not before the outflow of people to tears, has long cannot cry, how she wanted to tie in with the past has been very good sub-Jun-back, because of his excellent work, so that multinational corporations stunning.
However, my father came back from the outside. "This is how the matter? Are doing sitting here? At what not to eat?"
"I do."
Mom got up and walked into the kitchen, took away her German Nina a paper towel. Mom really strong, so deep the suffering of a person against her, Elaine had never seen my mother have her own friends often complained to her father, to Elaine, but always able to interrupt, then a hard, her suffering has never been one to listen to no one willing to listen. Today she finally say, a father’s "do not eat the night you?" She should be immediately wiped away tears to cooking, she even a good chance of self-sad is not hard once again been forced out, like a very happy all of a sudden ban on happy talk of a being for others to express their sudden ban on speech. But the mother did not say anything other than to say "I do."
German Nina night to eat a lot of food, drink a lot of soup, because she felt that she must not be starved to death. Her heart was in her own, but her life, not just her own, she should grow up, have eight of 30. The acceptance of responsibility for her child, and then she also refused, but now, she should take the initiative to assume these responsibilities.
German Nina this summer did not have to stay at home, but also did not find any work, she went to school early to participate in a counseling and classes, study section of the tutorial classes.
That being the case, then do not live up to the expectations of Zaitsev, she admitted to graduate now, but also to facilitate more opportunities for him.
After the boot has been Zaitsev from the SMS, he said he hoped his own life to take care of Elaine, if not together, his heart will never have her. So on and so forth, the last one is, "I do not say anything, and I am sorry."
"I’m sorry " German Nina, Kazakhstan, Kazakhstan smile three times is still Zaitsev Elaine with an apology. She also can not imagine what is meant by "Do not delay the other." Almost three years, do not delay her. She really do not know what her past in the back and not come back. Read the details of her information is issued two weeks ago. In this way not to contact you. But one day every other night, she could not back, she told him her phone has been shut down. Marked with the words, she pressed the send.
There is only one word she wanted to give her own - "cheap." Faster than for a whole day, Zaitsev information did not come back. In addition to what can be the word that she? She fell to phone, can not fail to do so. Failure to do so will not be able to express her hatred of the phone, she does not hate Zaitsev, she hated her own, as well as her bloody phone.
Class in her classroom on the stairs, from the phone dropped to the sixth floor, hard and also returns, from the other side of the stairs go.
She wanted a study section. Really, she wanted a study section. Zaitsev’s mother is said that do not delay call Rhode Nina Zaitsev. It also Rhode Nina obedient, Zaitsev Rhode Nina also listen to my mother, she will not call her own Rhode Nina delay,but should not be allowed to reproduce Min telephone and waste sub - Jun future, they just want to live quietly flat.
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