在这世界上，但凡是爱，随之而存在的就有不安心，不会有让人放心的爱。凡是放心的，都是不爱的，如果哪天由放心转为不放心，那说明就是由不爱转为爱了。
罗德尼娜思考她对于扎伊采夫，她想，她是爱扎伊采夫爱到生命里了。以前说威廉，或者说尤勒尔诺夫的爱，或许有可能是因为氛围和和自己的梦说出来的，那绝不是假，但却没有那么严峻，而现在，她对他的爱是严峻的了，没有扎伊采夫，她不知道自己要怎样度过以后的生活。而扎伊采夫，他也想尽一切为她开脱，让她把一切精力放在比赛上来。她想扎伊采夫是一开始就没有做梦的，他的爱一开始就是严峻的，可能他只是想慢慢来，会想更多以后的事情，会比较忙于工作，那也是因为男人总是要比女人更快也更容易知道现实，接受现实。所以考研的事情，扎伊采夫觉得已经决定要提升学历要考研，就要很努力的学习了，其它一切都应当次要于考研，而爱莲娜却还没有进入状态。当然也不得不说女人是比男人要小心眼的动物，或许从另外一个侧面来说，女人一谈起恋爱来，更容易失去自我，变得没有自信。没有哪个女人的恋爱观能够像舒婷的《致橡树》里面那样。可能有，但这个女人一定不是罗德尼娜。
一旦站出来思考发生在自己身上的事，以前怎么都不明白的，忽然就明白了很多。她也才发现，以前她那么不了解自己，不知道自己要做什么，好多事情都是不得不做才去做，从来她没有自己喜欢做而且一直在做的事情，一直以来她也都羡慕那些一直在做着一件事情，饭也不吃觉也不睡的人们，她想那些人们是最值得尊敬的。那些可以为一件事情献身的人，无论是革命事业还是梵高的向日葵贝多芬的钢琴曲，他们是那样伟大。可能他们生前并不受到某些人的赞同与支持，但是他们义无反顾，穷极一生也要把这件事情做到底。当然这件事情必定是他所喜欢的。
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对于爱莲娜来说，她并没有发现有一件事情让她可以为之奋斗一生，小时候做着父母让做的事情，大些了做着老师让做的事情，终于在高考的时候自己选择了大学要学的体育专业，可是那时或许是为了赌气，为了能够向她的家人，向全世界证明她自己可以自主选择某些东西，当然当初是喜欢文学的，但是大学里的专业课好像跟文学并不怎么是一回事。一直到现在，爱莲娜觉得她自己的身体，她的思想仍然不属于她自己。跟尤勒尔诺夫以前，她的身体属于她父母，以后，她的身体便属于扎伊采夫，女人的心是跟她的身体一致，从头到尾，爱莲娜都没有一颗心在她自己本人上面。终于她发现了这种早已存在的事实，她知道了自己是多么的空洞，完完全全的，她是一个空壳，她的身体里面，从上到下，脑袋里面，血液里面，完全空无一物。这种发现让她觉得恐惧，她想她要为填充自己做些事情了，不需要多，只一件就好了。
当她把自己的这种情况跟阿俊说了以后，平平便生气地说：“做什么都与你无关，你有五十万就过来！”，她问阿俊最想做的一件事情是什么，阿俊很迅速地说，“挣钱，我们要挣很多很多的钱。”
“挣钱也算事情么？”
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“当然，所有人都在挣钱啊，怎么不是事情。我也喜欢过很多东西，高中以前我也跟那你一样，喜欢体育和文学，后来我也学过跳舞，弹钢琴，但是我现在都觉得，没有任何一件事情让我觉得很有安全感，除了挣钱。即使恋爱也不能给我足够的安全，甚至说，我从男人那里根本得不到安全感。你要知道，无论是谁，也无论任何时候，都有可能因为没有饭吃而饿死。”
爱莲娜没想到阿俊已经变了很多，她还记得阿俊以前还写过一篇演讲稿，那是他为她自己获得诺贝尔文学奖写的，上面写道，他是中国第一个获得诺贝尔文学奖的人。变吧，人都是会变的。而罗德尼娜好似一直都没有变过，不过她的没有变化也正好提醒了她自己：是的，她以前是喜欢文学的，为什么不继续喜欢下去呢？他已经决定了，文学将作为他毕生的事业。那么以后走的每一步路，都是有目标的了，他庆幸自己将不再是一个空壳，永远和她成为朋友，甚至高唱《我和你》。
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In this world, but those who love, then there exists does not feel at ease, rest assured there will be no love for people. All rest assured, is not love, if not day to be assured by the assured, it’s from do not love to love.
Thinking she German Nina Zaitsev,she thought, she is the love Zaitsev life of love to. Previously it was said that William, or the love of Jules Mikhail, perhaps there may be due to the atmosphere and their own dreams and to tell you, it is not false, but not so severe, and now, she is the love of his severe of a, there is no Zaitsev, she did not know how to spend their later life. And Zaitsev, he also tried to justify everything for her, let her focus on the game all up. She would like to start Zaitsev is no dream, and his love of a tough start, but maybe he just want to take your time would be more like what happened afterwards would be more busy work, it is because men are always faster than women and more easily to know the reality and accept the reality. Therefore, the study section of the things that Zaitsev had been decided to upgrade their qualifications to study section, it is necessary to study very hard, and all other should be of secondary importance in the study section, but Elaine has not yet entered the state. Of course, have to say to women than men narrow-minded animals, perhaps from another side, the woman I love to talk more easily lose their self-confidence become.no woman can be like Shu Ting’s “sends the oak” inside out. There may be, but this woman is definitely not the German Nina.
Thinking to come out once happened to them to do, in the past do not understand how suddenly understood a lot. She also found that, in the past she did not understand themselves, do not know what to do, had to do a lot of things to do before, never like to do, she does not have its own and has been doing, she has always been envious of those who are has been doing one thing, do not eat rice feel people do not sleep, she would like those people are the most worthy of respect. One thing for those people themselves, whether it is the revolutionary cause of Van Gogh or Beethoven’s Piano sunflower, as they are great. Perhaps they had not been endorsed by some people and support, but they are duty-bound, extremely poor live in the end these things do. Of course, this matter must be his favorite.
For Elaine, she has not found one thing to fight for her life, when doing so do their parents, the more the teachers doing to do so, and finally in the entrance of their choice when the University of professional sports to learn, but that time may be in order to feel wronged and act rashly, in order to be able to her family, she proved to the world that they are able to choose certain things, of course, it was like literature, but it seems the university with the specialized literature not how it is one thing. To this day, Elaine felt her own body, she still does not belong to the idea of her own. Mikhail ago with Jules, her body belongs to her parents, later, her body will be taken as Zaitsev, a woman’s heart is in line with her body, from start to finish, Elaine is not a heart in the I am above her own. She finally discovered the fact that already exist, she knows how they are empty, completely, and she is a shell, inside her body, from top to bottom, inside his head, blood inside, completely empty a thing. This found that fear of her, she would like her to do something to fill their own, and do not need more than just a fine.
When her own with such a situation that Arab League handsome after it angrily flat said: “what to do has nothing to do with you, you have half a million on the back!”, She asked the most Arab League handsome want to do one thing What is Arab League handsome very quickly said that “to make money, we have to earn a lot of money.”
"Operators are also things you make money?"
"Of course, everyone has come to make money, ah, how things are not. I like a lot of things like high school that I like you, like sports and literature, but then I also learned to dance, play the piano, but I now feel that there is no one thing makes me feel very insecure, in addition to money. Even if love does not give me sufficient security, even said that I do not receive from the men a sense of security there. you know, no matter who , whether at any time, there may be no food and starved to death. "
Elaine Arab League handsome did not expect a lot has changed, she still remember Arab League handsome ago also wrote a speech, it was his access to her own written by the Nobel Prize for literature, wrote the above, he was China’s first access to Nobel Literature Prize. Change it, people are bound to change. And if German Nina has not changed,but there is no change in her is also a timely reminder of her own: Yes, she used to be like literature, why not continue to like it? He has already decided, literature will serve as the cause of his life. Then go after every step of the way, are targeted, and he will be glad that they are no longer a shell, and she will never become friends, and even singing "I’m with you."
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