当我跨出门走向雨巷时，雨又开始下了。狂风暴雨和奔腾而来的浪涛声，在我耳畔掠过，听起来像是微弱的哭泣声。我裹紧了雨衣，拉低了雨帽，以便挡住那呼啸不停的寒风。
雨水顺着我的颈背流下，我立刻将外套式的雨衣又扯紧了些。我停下脚步，站在孤灯下，看着黑暗从四处袭来。此时此地，我又是孤单了，而今晚台风过后，这世界寂静得像是只剩下我一个人。
在我的左手边，我可以看见很多很多车灯飞快地往城市迈进，但是我惟独听得见的声音只是风雨声，夹杂着海浪拍打岸边，以及狂风穿越过雨巷尽头那座空的两层木屋时的呼呼声，我还记得以前那两层木屋曾是令人骄傲的建筑，屋子里每逢中秋，便会传出“妈妈叫你回家吃月饼”的呼声。每当有台风时，那些气象专家们就会聚集在木屋中观看风向风力的变化，就像我一样，这木屋也曾有过黄金岁月啊！
自怜的情绪袭来，让我的脸上多了雨水外的泪珠。我轻轻地抹了一下眼睛，匆匆离开灯光，向雨巷的尽头走去。
眼前的她让我大吃一惊,她就是一年前在雨巷的年轻女子,蓬头垢面,见人就傻笑,且毫不避讳地当众小便。因此,雨巷里的媳妇们常对着那女子吐口水,有的媳妇还上前踹几脚,叫她“滚远些”。可她就是不走,依然傻笑着在雨巷里转悠。
那时,威廉的父亲已有35岁。他曾在石料场子干活被机器绞断了左手,又因家穷,一直没娶媳妇。奶奶见那女子还有几份姿色,就动了心思,决定收下她给威廉父亲做媳妇,等她给威廉家“续上香火”后,再把她撵走。父亲虽老，内心里总有点不情愿,但看着家里这番光景,咬咬牙还是答应了。
结果,父亲一分未花,就当了新郎。娘生下我的时候,奶奶抱着我,瘪着没剩几颗牙的嘴,欣喜地说:“这疯婆娘,还给我生了个带把的孙子”。“只是我一生下来,奶奶就把我抱走了,而且从不让娘接近”。 娘一直想抱抱我,多次在奶奶面前吃力地喊:“给,给我……”。奶奶没理她，我那么小,像个肉嘟嘟,万一娘失手把我掉在地上怎么办?毕竟,娘是个疯子。每当娘有抱我的请求时,奶奶总瞪起眼睛训她:“你别想抱孩子,我不会给你的。要是我发现你偷抱了他,我就打死你。即使不打死,我也要把你撵走。“奶奶说这话时,没有半点儿含糊的意思。娘听懂了,满脸的惶恐,每次只是远远地看着我。尽管娘的奶胀得厉害,可我没能吃到娘的半口奶水,是奶奶一匙一匙把我喂大的。奶奶说娘的奶水里有“神经病”,要是传染给我就麻烦了。
那时,威廉家依然在贫困的泥潭里挣扎。特别是添了娘和我后,家里常常揭不开锅。奶奶决定把娘撵走,因为娘不但在家吃“闲饭”,时不时还惹是生非。 一天,奶奶煮了一大锅饭,亲手给娘添了一大碗,说:“媳妇儿,这个家太穷了,婆婆对不起你。你吃完这碗饭,就去找个富点儿的人家过日子,以后也不准来了,啊？”娘刚扒了一大团饭在口里,听了奶奶下的“逐客令”显得非常吃惊,一团饭就在嘴里凝滞了。娘望着奶奶怀中的我,口齿不清地哀叫:“不,不要……”奶奶猛地沉下脸,拿出威严的家长作风厉声吼到:“你这个疯婆娘,犟什么犟,犟下去没你的好果子吃。你本来就是到处流浪的,我收留了你两年了,你还要怎么样?吃完饭就走,听到没有?”说完奶奶从门后拿出一柄锄,像余太君的龙头杖似的往地上重重一磕,“咚”地发出一声响。娘吓了一大跳,怯怯地看着婆婆,又慢慢低下头去看面前的饭碗,有的泪水落在白花花的米饭上。在逼视下,娘突然有个很奇怪的举动,她将碗中的饭分了一大半给另一只空碗,然后可怜巴巴地看着奶奶。奶奶呆了。
原来,娘是向奶奶表示,每餐只吃半碗饭,只求别赶她走。心仿佛被人狠狠揪了几把,奶奶也是女人,她的强硬态度也是装出来的。奶奶别过头,生生地将热泪憋了回去,然后重新板起了脸说:“快吃快吃,吃了快走。在我家你会饿死的。”娘似乎绝望了,连那半碗饭也没吃,朗朗跄跄地出了门,却长时间站在门前不走。奶奶硬着心肠说:“你走,你走,不要回头。天底下富裕人家多着呢!”娘反而走拢来,一双手伸向婆婆怀里,原来,娘想抱抱我。奶奶犹豫了一下,还是将襁褓中的我递给了娘。娘第一次将我搂在怀里,咧开嘴笑了,笑得春风满面。奶奶却如临大敌,两手在我身下接着,生怕娘的疯劲一上来,将我像扔垃圾一样丢掉.娘抱我的时间不足三分钟,奶奶便迫不及待地将我夺了过去,然后转身进屋关上了门。
当我懵懵懂懂地晓事时,我才发现,除了我,别的小伙伴都有娘。我找父亲要,找奶奶要,他们说,你娘死了。可小伙伴却告诉我:“你娘是疯子,被你奶奶赶走了。”我便找奶奶扯皮,要她还我娘,还骂她是“狼外婆”,甚至将她端给我的饭菜泼了一地。那时我还没有“疯”的概念,只知道非常想念她,她长什么样？还活着吗？
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When I go to Rainy Cross, the rain has begun. The storm and the sound of the waves Pentium, tear off in my ear, sounds like a faint sob. I wrapped in his coat, pulled down a rain-hat to block the wind was rushing.
Shed water down my neck, I immediately coat-style raincoat pushing a bit tight. I stopped and stood Gudeng, the look dark from the four hit. Here and now, I was lonely, and tonight after the typhoon, which is the world’s silence like I am the only one.
In my left hand, I can see many, many lights moving quickly to the city, but I hear the sound but only just Feng Yusheng, mixed with ocean waves crashing the shore, and wind through the air over Rainy end of the two really tall wooden floor when the whir, I remember that two-story wooden building was once the proud, the house every Mid-Autumn Festival, will be heard, "Mom told you to go home to eat moon cake," the voice. Whenever a typhoon, meteorological experts who will gather in huts to watch changes in wind direction wind, like me, this has had a golden age of wooden ah!
Self-pity mood strikes, I face more rain outside tears. I gently rubbed his eyes, and hastily left the lights went to the Lane in the end.
Surprised me in front of her, she was a year ago, a young woman in Rainy, unkempt, telling anyone giggle, and not shy about urinating in public. Therefore, the wife Raining in TV drama women are often on the spit, also stepped forward to kick some kicks wife, told her to "roll farther." She just would not go, still grinning around in the Rainy.
At that time, William’s father had 35 years of age. He has worked at the stone gathering place was the machine breakage of the left hand, because of poor family, had never a bride. Grandma see that there are several pretty women, and had thought, decided to accept her daughter to William his father, waiting for her at home to William, "continued the incense", the then dismissed her. Although the old father, within the heart somehow reluctantly, but at home Zhefan circumstances, the wound was agreed.
Result, the father did not spend one minute on when the groom. Mother gave birth to me, holding my grandmother, deflated some of the teeth was not left in the mouth, delighted and said: "This is crazy horrible woman, with the return I gave birth to a grandson." "But I was born, my grandmother took me took away, and never let your mother close." Mother always wanted to hug me several times in the face of difficult grandmother cried: "Give, give me ... ...." Grandma did to her, and I so small, like a meat toot, if your mother missed out on the floor of my how to do? After all, your mother is crazy. Mother hold me whenever there is a request, the total Dengqi eyes dress her grandmother: "You’re not even think about carrying children, I will not give you. If I find you stealing hold him, I will kill you. Even without playing death, I also take you away. "Grandma said this, no got a vague meaning. Mother understood, face the fear, but afar off me every time. Although Mother’s milk distended powerful, but I did not eat into your mother’s half-mouth milk, a spoonful of his grandmother fed me a big spoon. Mother’s milk grandmother said there are "crazy", if transmitted to me on the trouble.
At that time, William family still struggling in the quagmire of poverty. Especially after I add the Mother and the family are often exposed not boil. Mother Grandma decided to thrust away, because your mother is not only home to eat, "idle rice", also stir up trouble from time to time. One day, my grandmother cooked a big pot, add hands to your mother with a big bowl, said: "The young married woman, the family was too poor, and her mother let you down. You finish this bowl of rice, go find something of the rich people live will continue to be allowed to come, ah? "Mother just had a big group Grilled rice in the mouth, listening to her grandmother the" expulsion order, "it is very surprising, a mass of stagnant food in the mouth. Mother looked at my grandma’s arms, slurred speech in screaming: "No, do not ... ..." Grandma suddenly darkened, shouted out sharply to the dignity of paternalism: "You mad horrible woman, what stubborn stubborn, Stubborn not you go, either. you always been wandering, and I accept you for two years, how should you like? left after dinner, hear? "Having a grandmother out from the door hoe handle, like Yu Taijun rod leading to the ground like a heavy knock, "dong" to issue a noise. Mother shocked, sheepishly looking at her mother, then slowly lowered his head to see the jobs front, and some tears fell on the shining white rice. In the watch intently, the Mother suddenly a very strange move, she will bowl of rice a half to the other empty bowl, and then looked piteously grandmother. Grandma stayed.
It turns out your mother said to her grandmother, half-bowl too eat each meal, just to do not catch her. Heart seems to be severely pulled a few people to, Grandma is a woman, she’s tough stance is put on. Grandma carried away, life and life to the tears Bie back, and then re-pulled a long face, said: "The fast eat fast food, eating to walking fast. In my house you will starve to death." Mother appears to despair, and even that half-bowl too are without food, Lang Lang to stagger stagger out the door, but did not take long stood at the door. Grandma Yingzhexinchang said: "You go, you go, do not look back. Under the sun s many rich people!" Mother but to go drew near, one hand stretched arms of her mother, the original, your mother would like to pick me up. Grandma hesitation, or the infant, I handed your mother. Mother first time I have in his arms, grinned, laughed Chunfengmanmian. Grandma showing that hands went under my body, fear of the mad King Mother coming up, like me lost like garbage. Niang hold less than three minutes of my time, my grandmother could not wait to seize the past, then turned into the room and shut the door.
Muddle to dawn when I do, I discovered, in addition to me, and other small partners are tan. I am looking for my father to find a grandmother to, they say, your mother died. May be a small partner told me: "your mother is crazy, to be rid of your grandmother." I would find my grandmother passing the buck to my mother she also called her a "Langwai Po," and even gave me her side dishes poured over the floor. I was not "crazy" concept, only know very much miss her, she look like? Still alive?
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